Illness is unfunness

So i am coming down with a cold, stupid cold. not to mention the weather is like 10 degrees here, very cold.

Was goin to an end of exams party tonight but dont feel like it cos of cold. But will still have some friends around for dinner tonight, so thats good.

Having people around makes me wonder about the nature of friendship.

Start with, there are some people you meet who are just exciting and who's company you enjoy. From there, if they like your company back, you end up hanging out and becoming friends, then after a while you probably drift apart until your the once a year friend if even that. So why do you get so excited at the start? Is it that they are someone new and interesting? when you get to know them better they are no longer new?

there are some people who i am friends with that when i first met them i didnt think of them as very interesting, i only chatted to them at parties etc to be polite, who now i get excited to catch up with, but then when we chat i am not that excited by the conversation, its epic small talk. but sometimes i think they make for better friends, because its less emotional investment, you dont get too unhappy if they forget to invite you to a party, or if you dont see them for a long time. so there is less likelyhood of having a "friend-break up".but also less chance of doing a crazy weekend away, cos they have their closer friends and you have yours for that.

some people start out like the second group and then sort of shift into the first. but the first never seems to shift to the second. i think thats like wat people mean by "dont want to ruin the friendship". if you go out with someone your awesome friends with then break up you may not be awesome friends anymore. but i think that close friendships tend to fizzle out anyway, you can only go forwards or backwards, you cant stay the same.

anyway, im about to fall asleep at my desk, later.