Post Weekend

So the weekend was busy but not as much as i originally thought it would be, because:

i didnt study on saturday because i was tired from friday night and getting up early for pilates so had a nap during the day.

i was still tired by saturday night so i was ready to bail fairly early from the houseparty

my parents didnt pick me up for the working b until lunchtime and i was tired so not that awake for my cuz birthday dinner

Mostly I enjoyed pilates, what made it was the friendly nurture style teacher (although she was intimidatingly flexible). i think its all about the teacher tho, the actual activity is relaxing but only because the teacher tells you step by step what to do, reminds you about the right breathing etc so you forget there are other people in the class. very peaceful. i think i will go again next weekend. although i think its a different teacher this week. not very strenuous. so i went for a 10k run that afternoon (after nap)

the house party started out well, got some canadian girls number, made plans for bike riding/ kayaking / squash with a few different people over the next 2 weeks. made dinner plans with two different groups of friends (although apparently i double booked myself for wednesday with an eox thing, so will do dinner early and then go to eox a little late (like 9 instead of 8)). and apparently i was entertaining enough that one girl i chatted to for a bit added me as a friend on facebook, although i have no profile picture so she must have ask Sarah which one was me >_>

but then (mayb because i was tired and drunk) it felt like i was sorta out of place, and although i shouldn't make comparisons (both because its not a friendly carefree way to behave and because my impressions of things are often really wrong), both my flatmates seemed to be getting along way better than i was with everyone else and it put me out of sorts. it made me feel like i wasn't very good at small talk, and that i mustn't be very interesting (and that i dont stand out in peoples minds as someone worth catching up with). thinking on it now, i think i had a big drop in blood sugar level (it was like 1ish) because i would normally be heading to bed about then, i had been drinking but had slowed down, and i hadnt eaten too much for a few hours. I say this because i think when i eat lots of good food i tend to be happier than when i eat highly processed food or skip a meal.

but now after my busy weekend, which i spent mostly feeling tired, i'm coming down with a sore throat and melencholy. its sort of a cycle, even though i dont continue to feel the same as i did late saturday, i feel a bit down that i get like that at all.

it was mostly a fun weekend.