I am a mean person

I was thinking on the way to work, am I a fun person? Then i was like, what would my friends say, probably yes-ish. Then it was like, maybe do i mean am i exciting, because friends wouldnt be happy to hang out unless you were somewhat fun, then i was like no. I dont do enough with enough enthusiasm and wild abandon to be an exciting person. Thats ok, it might be exhausting. Then i thought, well I wouldnt say fun, at least not all the time, but sometimes... which i came to the descriptor: better-than-nothing some of the time.

Then i thought to myself... wow, what a negative internal monologue i have... so mean.