hangover

In the gym today i was feeling really angry. Undirected rage at nothing in particular. It wore off when i was working out, but it was a sence of impotent rage, because i was angry, but anything i did in anger, i would have 2 sort it out afterwards. I wanted 2 somehow use what i was feeling to acheive some fast, permanent and dramatic change, in myself, my circumstances or perhaps the world. But i couldn't. It seems that no single action would result in such a change. If i want to achieve anything lasting, i must devote time and effort to it. But moods can change much more quickly than circumstances and i fear i cannot dedicate myself like that. And that even if i could, other peoples circumstances change faster than i can keep up with...

I spose that is only important if the changes i desire are assosiated with other people.

Today's moroase complainin is brought 2 u by a hangover. Went out drinkin 4 a friends going away yesterday,and although i didnt feel overly drunk, i did have a bad hangover 2day. It is a recent development of mine, the last year or so, that a hangover is accompanied by feeling low.

That, and the fact i slept too late 2 do what i wanted 2 this morning, makes drinkin not seem worth it anymore.