The Lie I Tell Myself...

Hmm, came up with that heading while thinking about writing an emo rant about my lack of an adventerous social life lately. But suddenly I realised it could go out in so many directions, definitely a loaded title... Think I will focus on what is stressing me at the moment... My Masters. Am I lying to myself when I say I can finish it. If I am serious with time commitment and focus, it should not be impossible. But then a voice raises in the back of my mind... am I buying into too much of my brothers "positive" speaking. Afraid to say what I'm worried about in case it gives it form in real life. Will I speak my failure into existance if i actually say it instead of skirting the fact... that I might fail? But I could list the people I know who have failed a masters, or dropped, or just never finished. Its alot. I can also list alot of friends who have passed, exceedingly well in some cases. Neither event changes my opinion of them. So is it some sort of arrogance that I should feel terrible at the idea of failure? Maybe its just stress talking. I think I can write 2/3 to 3/4's in the next week and a bit to a near finished standard... but that last chapter is pretty much the entire contribution... however, since my supervisor (primary) seems uninterested, my secondary is a genial fellow who passes just about anything, its only the tertiary (who also happens to be a naval architect) who would really concern himself about the quality of the last chapter... Once the model is mostly done, i need to fit the data to it... the data has been post processed, so I can write up a description of manouvers, DAQ setup and data processing without anymore analysis. Im hoping alot of the fitting will be done to match existing work... but Im really terrible when something stresses me... I just avoid it.. by stalling myself that one unimportant section isnt perfect, or by writting self indulgent blogs... I have ~58 days left... I need to focus. no wasting time... I hate reading articles to get information from them. The authors always have a particular way of setting up their taskspace so the solution works, but is never the exact same as mine, so they never end up being straight drag and drop. Instead it always takes days to weeks to get anything from an article... I will just have to shove it into overdrive and set my bullshit generator on high gear. Good luck me. (The lie i tell myself)