I need to finish my masters or quit altogether so that I can move on with things. It is the elephant in the room, for me, my family and some of my friends (listed in order of how much I care about their opinion on the matter).
Myself, I keep thinking of all this stuff I will "do" after I finish my masters (which was originally what i would do after i finished my PhD but I wimped out of that). My Plan:
-Finish Masters
-Get passport, start learning german, start looking for work in germany as an engineer in the field of automation
-Get a job in Germany, move there a few months before it is suppost to start and then explore Europe until work starts.
-Get the EU version of certified practicing engineer.
-Live there for about 5 years, maybe buy a place or at least save enough to buy a place here when I come back.
But this is all being pushed back by the lack of finishing my Masters. I changed from a PhD to Masters for a few reasons:
-Hoped to finish sooner
-Didnt enjoy it so wanted out
-Didnt want to have wasted my time
-Didnt want a "gap" of productivity on my resume
-Didnt want to let down/dissapoint my supervisors (although i dont think i achieved this I can say I at least tried not to if I finish the Masters)
-Didnt want to prove that I couldnt do this, and that Im not as smart as I thought I was (although to be fair, the mind is great at protecting self-image, I cant really convince myself that it is *really* a failure since I "bored" out, rather than being too dumb... but another part points out that if your not tested you never know)
But all these reasons are just as empty etc if i dont finish the masters...
Damn elephant.
3 comments:
awwhh... there's no elephant in the room unless you want there to be one. which I'm sure you are aware of as finishing is the mostly effecting you. Also, a lot of not too smart ppl finish masters (myself included) and it is not a judge of intelligence in anyway. Just how stubbon and determined you at to grind at a problem.
tc mw
hmm, i half think that applies to a PhD aswell. But now with the fact they record a mark for masters, I feel I need to aim for a above 90... maybe a bit late for that goal though.
I doubt marks matter very much in the working world. So what if you got in the 70s or 80s or 90s ? If you're working as an engineering in a company, they're not going to give you a better package because you got a better score in your degree.
I doubt very much that anyone even cares that we went to melbuni. It's so bitter sweet looking back at uni now and thinking, wait none of that matters here. Everything that we used to value in academia is inconsequential and my own value judgement system is F*ed up.
But please do not let me discourage you from aiming for above 90, b/c frankly I think you'll make if you put enough effort into it.
mw
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